Leave to Live
I love my studio loft that I have completely renovated into a contemporary space and made into my cozy home for the past 4 years. I love my hard top convertible 230 Mercedes SLK that I fully take advantage of driving around under the Southern Californian sun. I love living in Orange County where I have access to the best Vietnamese food outside of Vietnam for half the cost of what I would pay for American food. Compared to most, I have a pretty good life. Yet I am about to leave everything behind for 6 months to travel the world. While this may seem pretty glamorous, I will be practically homeless and living out of a suitcase. Since my travel funds are limited, instead of fancy hotels, I will be mostly staying in hostels where it's cheap and relying on the kindness of strangers as I "couchsurf" in their homes in cities where accommodations are more expensive. Furthermore, I will be without a car and making my way around via, train, subway, metro, bus, and the old fashion way of walking. And lastly, I will also be working on the road so it's not entirely an extended vacation but instead, more like a "workation".
As I was planning my 6 months trip to Japan, China, Vietnam, Cambodia, Thailand, Malaysia, Singapore, Indonesia, Australia and New Zealand, I was very much excited with only a small amount of concern for being on the road for that long. However, as my leave date came closer and closer, my initial excitement slowly dwindled and my minor concern grew into a large overwhelming fear. What if I got rob or run out of money sooner than I planned? What if I hurt myself or end up getting killed in a mugging? What if the plane I am on crashed into the ocean or is hijacked by terrorists? I have an excellent imagination so I could go on but I think you get the point. It got pretty bad to the point where I actually considered calling the whole thing off altogether. And the worse part is I couldn't really tell anybody. It was already crazy enough when I told all my family and friends that I quit my job to travel the world, it would sound much worse now if I told them I am too scared to go and is considering getting back on the hamster wheel again. Therefore, I kept my mouth shut.
So in case you are wondering if I chickened out or not, let me tell you that I am writing this blog post on a connecting plane to Beijing from Japan. If I've learned anything in my life, it's that I always regret much more the things I wanted to do but didn't than the things I did do, regardless of what the end results are. I let fear held me back from my dreams of world travel for years before I saved up enough money and gathered enough guts to actually quit my job. There is no way I am going to let fear stand in my way of what I have always wanted to do.
As Lao Tzu once said, "the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." And the funny thing about continually putting one foot in front of another is that eventually, you will get somewhere, whether it is to where you initially wanted to go, or to a completely different place you never imagine yourself going. The thing that I actually enjoy the most about travelling is being in a completely foreign place and totally out of my comfort zone. As uncomfortable as this maybe in the beginning, it is where I am able to discover what I am truly capable of and change with each new experience I encounter and grow from each challenge I am able to overcome. I am able to make new friends and learn so much more about myself and the world when I travel than I ever could staying within the comforts of home. All of these factors combine help to transform me into a better version of myself. So all and all, while it isn't easy to leave everything I've ever known behind, there is really no other way I rather live.
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Thank you for your kind words Allegra. I am glad my story resonated with you. It is great what you are doing to help those also wanting to take this leap of faith. Keep up the good work. If there is anything I can do to help, do not hesitate to ask.
And nicely put Thanh Trang, most definitely!
As the French have a saying "Better having remorses than regrets."
I discovered you just now through the Nomadtopia board on FB and am glad I did. This story and account of taking the leap into the unknown is incredibly inspiring -- I wish you had felt more support during that transition, though, which is just what I want to bring to the people I work with. What you have learned through that will carry through for the rest of your life --- enjoy every moment on the road. :)
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